Receipt Pile

I took a deep breath. I had a few minutes to myself while my husband took our kids on a walk.

It was time to tackle one of those old boxes taking up space. They had been sitting there far too long.

I squared my shoulders. I didn’t feel like doing it, but this was my opportunity.

Lifting the lid off a box, I peered inside. A heaping pile of receipts caught my eye.

I lifted a lengthy receipt from a grocery store, not worth keeping for more than a month or two (in case of recalls). I searched for the date. It was from two years ago. Certainly not needed now.

Setting the receipt on the floor beside me, I started a “To Be Recycled” pile.

I glanced at the next receipt. It was from a similar time period. Into the recycling pile it went.

Pausing, I studied the receipt pile. I could probably toss them all without a second glance.

“But there might be something valuable mixed in.”

With the thought that maybe there was a receipt from some big item with a warranty still valid, I began shifting through the receipts one by one.

As the pile on the floor grew, I found myself becoming reflective.

What an incredible amount of stuff we bought in the past couple of years! Groceries, household items, kids clothes…

The majority of the receipts were from the grocery store – the food we bought long since consumed.

I lifted a receipt to see which store it was from – Staples. I glanced at the item purchased. Immediately I recalled buying that computer mouse.

A pink paper caught my eye. It was the alterations receipt from my bridesmaid dress for my sister’s wedding.

At the bottom of the pile was a separate box of receipts from my own wedding: ribbon, flowers, thank you cards, and my husband’s wedding band.

So many memories.

Many of the items I was thankful to have decided to buy. Other items were long since forgotten.

I found myself wondering, “What about in my life?”

If I saw all the receipts of how I spent my time and energy this past year, would I be pleased with what I saw?

Would God be pleased?

Before I go further, it is at this point that, as someone who has dealt with chronic fatigue, I often must stop to remind myself of 2 Corinthians 8:11-13.

“For if the eagerness is there, the gift is acceptable according to what a person has, not according to what he does not have.” (CSB)

I am only responsible for how I use what I do have, whether that be the energy, time, or resources God has given me, not for what I don’t have.

If today all I can do is rest in bed, God understands.

That aside, how did I use my life this past year? If I had a receipt for every action and thought, what would each say?

Was I pursuing Jesus and active in the work He has given me to do (whether parenting, or doing my best at my job, or whatever that may be).

Did I waste my time, energy and resources on meaningless things that have now been long since forgotten?

Ultimately it is my heart He is after.

My thoughts and actions are merely an outpouring of where my heart is at.

Do I love God? Am I trusting Him? Am I praising Him? Am I resting in the fact that He is in control? Am I thanking Him?

Where my heart is at will be evident in the receipts of my life.

One day, I will need to give an account to God for each of those thoughts and actions. (Romans 14:12)

As I look forward to the new year, may my heart seek after God, so that, with His help, I may not be ashamed of the receipts. May the receipts of my life in this coming year be pleasing in God’s sight.